I hit the gym today at work and from now on, I'm gonna gym for an hour daily. My EQ ( exercise quotient if there is one like that ) is just slightly above my IQ, the latter being just a little above the below-average category! and this means, I have to exercise! Having been the outdoorsy kinds,I know fully well what burning fat means but oflate, laziness has overtaken my priorities. Though I have been getting hints often these days from my body, I haven't done much about them! Rather I have been giving excuses. Some of the hints I have been getting
1. My fave jeans is struggling on its way up :)-
2. My erstwhile glorius skin shows aftermarks from pimple ruptures
3. The stairs to my cafeteria appear as though am climbing the Empire State Building
4. Am cursing,swearing and middle-fingering all those who make driving tough for me on the road.(In short am stressed!)
5. My back hurts when I sweep and mop my house!!
6. Those ugly devils are coming back,sleepless nights,more frequently than before!
7. Those uglier devils are threatening to come back,yes the migraines!
The last hint was enough for me to realize that it is time I get back to putting my system through some sweating-out! Thanks Sundari for helping me choose the right track suit from Adidas today,I bought you a Kalmane Koffee in return :)- Well, I did tread-mill for a full 30 minutes non-stop! What a superb feeling at the end of it!
As per medical guidelines, one must sweat with brisk walk/run/jog and that indicates a good heart! Am glad I have a good one,I always knew it beats well and specially well when a handsome,smart man walks by (*wink*) but I had my doubts if it really beat that well, you know what I mean ? yeah,the 72 per minute thingy! Today, I knew it does! Thank God for it...
Apart from beating hearts,a brisk jog/run/walk helps me focus on the priorities in life correctly. Dunno what, but the whole rhythm harmonises the self into thinking about life and philosophy etc, for me it does! Especially on a tread-mill in Oracle's wee gym,with loud music from that stupid music player next to the weighing machine coupled with fellow-gymmers and their machines,I look to focus somewhere away and concentrate.Whoever put the mirror in front of the tread-mill deserves a Nobel Prize for common-sense (committee should set this category up!),the mirror serves as a reference for all things possible during the gym hour! The mirror channelises my thoughts,it helps me see how much I sweat thereby encouraging me to do more(no I dont like sweat,it stinks but remember the more you sweat,the better your heart beats ? and when my wonderful face goes clean and pink(with all the toxins removed), I feel beautiful! For a woman,feeling beautiful is as important as her existence( am joking here!) It makes me feel healthy at the end of it all! Most importantly,it removes the guilt of having gorged on a chocolate cake or a vada during snacks time, which means I can have a bigger piece or a double vada ?? yum yum!!
Yesterday,I watched 'Bunty Aur Babli' and noticed in the 'Kajara Re' song that Ash's tummy was flat! 'Always Aim High' is my fave quote :)-
Monday, October 22, 2007
Thursday, October 18, 2007
My Obsessive Compulsive Disorder...
okie,am copying from Anand's latest blog. My list of ragas that bring out the OCD in me...
1. Kambhoji
2. Bhairavi
3. Hindolam
4. Sahana
5. Kharaharapriya
6. Saama ( Annapurne Vishalakshi from KVN)
7. Reetigowla
8. Sindubhairavi
9. Kapi
10.Bilahari
11...
ok..so i dont want to write all the ragas now.. but you guessed right, I have an Obsessive Compulsive Disorder with Carnatic music!! Glad! Andy,you are the one who has fed me so much of music that this disorder has accentuated a million times over now!
And to fuel it further, you have recently started handing out stuff that sounds like Marwa,Ahaliya Bilawal,Bhairav,Bibhas,Lalith Pancham and the rest... am gonna die of this disorder, what ?
talking of dying,my ultimate death wish would be this:-
Reclining on a couch somewhere up in the mountains,with peace and quite around,reading the 'The Murder on the Orient Express',listening to KVN rendering 'Mokshamu galadha' from my Ipod, in silent reflection of the years gone by,shedding a tear or two for lost childhood,thanking HIM for the lovely life he gave me,sipping home-brewed coffee,falling asleep and not waking up again!
I have an OCD with imagination too, perhaps ??
1. Kambhoji
2. Bhairavi
3. Hindolam
4. Sahana
5. Kharaharapriya
6. Saama ( Annapurne Vishalakshi from KVN)
7. Reetigowla
8. Sindubhairavi
9. Kapi
10.Bilahari
11...
ok..so i dont want to write all the ragas now.. but you guessed right, I have an Obsessive Compulsive Disorder with Carnatic music!! Glad! Andy,you are the one who has fed me so much of music that this disorder has accentuated a million times over now!
And to fuel it further, you have recently started handing out stuff that sounds like Marwa,Ahaliya Bilawal,Bhairav,Bibhas,Lalith Pancham and the rest... am gonna die of this disorder, what ?
talking of dying,my ultimate death wish would be this:-
Reclining on a couch somewhere up in the mountains,with peace and quite around,reading the 'The Murder on the Orient Express',listening to KVN rendering 'Mokshamu galadha' from my Ipod, in silent reflection of the years gone by,shedding a tear or two for lost childhood,thanking HIM for the lovely life he gave me,sipping home-brewed coffee,falling asleep and not waking up again!
I have an OCD with imagination too, perhaps ??
Tuesday, October 16, 2007
Saturday, October 13, 2007
A Saturday with myself...
today has been one of those saturdays when you come to office to do some pending work and then end up doing otherwise! Infact for me,it has been a Saturday@office after a gap of atleast 6 months, probably. In a way, today was a welcome change. Office on a weekend is a haven of peace and quiet, except for the humming of the machines and handful of souls around. The AC is switched off and somehow the environment exudes warmth (sans the AC perhaps ? ) and one feels cozy. Infact, if I could get myself to work today,I could have got done quite a bit. But,am a lazy,dreamy bum!!
Anyway,I just browsed through some database documentation and then went about doing the one dreadful job,that is still pending, and that is, copying over music to my IPOD using Itunes ( read that as pain in the a**). I have accumulated so much of legacy carnatic music on my office PC and it needs to be archived over. But the very thought of Itunes, used to make me postpone this activity until, Anand,my friend whom I can never thank enough,shoved about 60 odd concerts of the great MDR, in one shot at that! So now, the need to archive is pressing and thats why am here today.
All day long, I have drunk the nectar of good old carnatic and hindustani music, it feels as if I have had a double meal. Started out with Lalgudi tillanas, proceeding to KVN (as always KVN is a daily affair!),MDR and a bit of DKJ in my car as I drove to attend music class inbetween. I also had a sudden craving for hindustani music which got me to listen to Ustad Rashid Khan! His voice is pure Scotch,his style is out of this world. Malkauns and Bhairavi thumris and a dadra in Pahadi and am in heaven. Not to forget DKJ's 'Agnyatha Bhakthi rasam' viruttam in Ragamalika in praise of Goddess Kamakshi, perfect timing for Navratri,this one! I simply love the way DKJ renders the line 'Kamakshi Naiva Thava Kaanchathi Dristi Pathaha' in Bilahari and then goes on to sing bilahari at length in akaaram, bliss,total bliss, even in the chaotic surroundings of my car on Nimhans flyover!!
Not just classical, I did listen to some golden songs from Lata as well. Listening to old Bollywood songs after a heavy dose of Indian classical is like eating curd rice after a proper 'yele oota' or like eating 'paalada pradaman' after a 'yummy sadya' in Sheeja's home! In short, as the song 'O Sajana Barkha Bahaar Ayi' resounds from my machine on a dull Saturday afternoon,one can't help feeling contentment in absolute terms!
Did I say,I came to finish work ? Oh forget it,weekends are not meant for work!! However,I have been a good girl inspite of all this wayward weekend behaviour,I did manage to understand how Bitmap Indexes are implemented!
I cant believe my Ipod is fuller than it was yesterday. It is still a little over 1.5GB and I have about 60GB of space left. Anand,where are you ?? What is next Saturday, the 20th of October like !! Ok, I think I have no plans for next weekend :)- :)-
PVR,Forum,food street,friends,work,life,problems and answers,cricket matches,shopping,beauty parlor,everything can wait I guess!!
signing off now.. am excited about my house 'Kolu', shall write on Navratri and my emotional bonding to it later. For now, I need a plate full of food!! Curd rice with mango pickles would be the icing on today's cake perhaps!!
Anyway,I just browsed through some database documentation and then went about doing the one dreadful job,that is still pending, and that is, copying over music to my IPOD using Itunes ( read that as pain in the a**). I have accumulated so much of legacy carnatic music on my office PC and it needs to be archived over. But the very thought of Itunes, used to make me postpone this activity until, Anand,my friend whom I can never thank enough,shoved about 60 odd concerts of the great MDR, in one shot at that! So now, the need to archive is pressing and thats why am here today.
All day long, I have drunk the nectar of good old carnatic and hindustani music, it feels as if I have had a double meal. Started out with Lalgudi tillanas, proceeding to KVN (as always KVN is a daily affair!),MDR and a bit of DKJ in my car as I drove to attend music class inbetween. I also had a sudden craving for hindustani music which got me to listen to Ustad Rashid Khan! His voice is pure Scotch,his style is out of this world. Malkauns and Bhairavi thumris and a dadra in Pahadi and am in heaven. Not to forget DKJ's 'Agnyatha Bhakthi rasam' viruttam in Ragamalika in praise of Goddess Kamakshi, perfect timing for Navratri,this one! I simply love the way DKJ renders the line 'Kamakshi Naiva Thava Kaanchathi Dristi Pathaha' in Bilahari and then goes on to sing bilahari at length in akaaram, bliss,total bliss, even in the chaotic surroundings of my car on Nimhans flyover!!
Not just classical, I did listen to some golden songs from Lata as well. Listening to old Bollywood songs after a heavy dose of Indian classical is like eating curd rice after a proper 'yele oota' or like eating 'paalada pradaman' after a 'yummy sadya' in Sheeja's home! In short, as the song 'O Sajana Barkha Bahaar Ayi' resounds from my machine on a dull Saturday afternoon,one can't help feeling contentment in absolute terms!
Did I say,I came to finish work ? Oh forget it,weekends are not meant for work!! However,I have been a good girl inspite of all this wayward weekend behaviour,I did manage to understand how Bitmap Indexes are implemented!
I cant believe my Ipod is fuller than it was yesterday. It is still a little over 1.5GB and I have about 60GB of space left. Anand,where are you ?? What is next Saturday, the 20th of October like !! Ok, I think I have no plans for next weekend :)- :)-
PVR,Forum,food street,friends,work,life,problems and answers,cricket matches,shopping,beauty parlor,everything can wait I guess!!
signing off now.. am excited about my house 'Kolu', shall write on Navratri and my emotional bonding to it later. For now, I need a plate full of food!! Curd rice with mango pickles would be the icing on today's cake perhaps!!
Wednesday, September 19, 2007
The Sanaatana Dharma..
There are times I feel lost,lonely and confused. This state-of-mind which, I allude to,collectively can be termed as "searching for an absolution". And mostly these are times when the going has been good, when the events in my life are in order, when there is no explicit occurance of anything that has upset my emotions or ruined my happiness or killed my enthusiasm or induced any form of dejectory feelings towards anyone or anything, in short when life is perfect, or nearly so! ( for nothing is perfect, let me not claim to possess this absolute)
I venture to repeat a self-conversation with myself here..
Me:Why do I feel this way when everything is going my way ?
My self:No idea.
Me: What are my unfulfilled desires ?
My self: Lots actually but I know it is only a matter of time.
Me: Am I afraid of loneliness ?
My self: Not really, it is a matter of time again.
Me: Am I saddened by that one person who forgot me, that one love I did not get or that one fight I had ?
My self: Maybe,but that is not cause of this feeling.
and so on. Well,conclusion ? None of these mundane problems are troubling me. I have enough grit and character in me to solve, get over or make amends to cure myself of these trivial heart-aches.This is something more.This is an emptiness that exists when when the cup of life seems full and overflowing! This is a question that am sure, has sprung from the inner souls of many a man/woman who walks this earth and has done so in the past. It is not a new one, yet, it is as I stand today, a long forgotten question,something that I have not answered to for a while now. Above all,it is difficult to postulate uncertain and complex thoughts!
As always, I go to GOOGLE, the all-answering machinery that exists in today's world.
Not knowing what to google, I cast my mind back to the current affairs of my country and randomly type the word 'Hinduism'. A plethora of answers,links and information in response makes me happy, for I have got something to 'timepass' :)-
Not even once does my dumb self realize that this was the answer to my questions. As I progressively read one link from another and delve into the mysticism of the 'Sanatana Dharma' and its universal principles, I feel a sense of relief, as if someone has lifted a boulder off me. My mind tries to understand the grand scheme of things,of 'The Brahman','The Creation','The Vedas','The Upanishads' and finally, the resting place for all unanswered questions of humankind,'The Bhagavad Gita'. A sense of restoration of spirit prevails, the confusion that I'm unable to even fathom is beginning to fade away and appear trivial and useless in comparison to the 'wisdom' of those sages who realized these very principles. I'm in awe of how much we have and how much there is to imbibe. I'm in awe of our ancient civilisation, of the society that was centuries ahead of the rest of the world, thousands of years before the calendar was recorded.
Most importantly, am in awe of the set of principles called 'Hinduism' that has remained intact after umpteen invasions, misinterpretation, competition and what not.
My mind is engrossed like never before. I feel proud of what I just did, it is a worthwhile act,to even try to understand the teachings of our Vedic saints..The people who invented 'Sanskrit' could never be fools!
This was a beautiful quote that impressed me from the zillion lines of 'wisdom pearls' in answer to this google search :-
“If all the Upanishads and all the other scriptures happened all of a sudden to be reduced to ashes, and if only the first verse in the Ishopanishad were left in the memory of the Hindus, Hinduism would live forever.”
"The Lord is enshrined in the hearts of all
The Lord is the supreme Reality
Rejoice in him through renunication.
Covet nothing. All belongs to the Lord." - Isha Upanishad 1 -1 .
I'm proud to live the 'Hindu way of life'
I'm proud to be a Hindu!
[P.S:
Question of the hour: 'Which engineering college did Ram attend ?'
My Answer : The College of faith,love,tolerance and all that is good in this universe,read it as 'Hinduism'...]
I venture to repeat a self-conversation with myself here..
Me:Why do I feel this way when everything is going my way ?
My self:No idea.
Me: What are my unfulfilled desires ?
My self: Lots actually but I know it is only a matter of time.
Me: Am I afraid of loneliness ?
My self: Not really, it is a matter of time again.
Me: Am I saddened by that one person who forgot me, that one love I did not get or that one fight I had ?
My self: Maybe,but that is not cause of this feeling.
and so on. Well,conclusion ? None of these mundane problems are troubling me. I have enough grit and character in me to solve, get over or make amends to cure myself of these trivial heart-aches.This is something more.This is an emptiness that exists when when the cup of life seems full and overflowing! This is a question that am sure, has sprung from the inner souls of many a man/woman who walks this earth and has done so in the past. It is not a new one, yet, it is as I stand today, a long forgotten question,something that I have not answered to for a while now. Above all,it is difficult to postulate uncertain and complex thoughts!
As always, I go to GOOGLE, the all-answering machinery that exists in today's world.
Not knowing what to google, I cast my mind back to the current affairs of my country and randomly type the word 'Hinduism'. A plethora of answers,links and information in response makes me happy, for I have got something to 'timepass' :)-
Not even once does my dumb self realize that this was the answer to my questions. As I progressively read one link from another and delve into the mysticism of the 'Sanatana Dharma' and its universal principles, I feel a sense of relief, as if someone has lifted a boulder off me. My mind tries to understand the grand scheme of things,of 'The Brahman','The Creation','The Vedas','The Upanishads' and finally, the resting place for all unanswered questions of humankind,'The Bhagavad Gita'. A sense of restoration of spirit prevails, the confusion that I'm unable to even fathom is beginning to fade away and appear trivial and useless in comparison to the 'wisdom' of those sages who realized these very principles. I'm in awe of how much we have and how much there is to imbibe. I'm in awe of our ancient civilisation, of the society that was centuries ahead of the rest of the world, thousands of years before the calendar was recorded.
Most importantly, am in awe of the set of principles called 'Hinduism' that has remained intact after umpteen invasions, misinterpretation, competition and what not.
My mind is engrossed like never before. I feel proud of what I just did, it is a worthwhile act,to even try to understand the teachings of our Vedic saints..The people who invented 'Sanskrit' could never be fools!
This was a beautiful quote that impressed me from the zillion lines of 'wisdom pearls' in answer to this google search :-
“If all the Upanishads and all the other scriptures happened all of a sudden to be reduced to ashes, and if only the first verse in the Ishopanishad were left in the memory of the Hindus, Hinduism would live forever.”
"The Lord is enshrined in the hearts of all
The Lord is the supreme Reality
Rejoice in him through renunication.
Covet nothing. All belongs to the Lord." - Isha Upanishad 1 -1 .
I'm proud to live the 'Hindu way of life'
I'm proud to be a Hindu!
[P.S:
Question of the hour: 'Which engineering college did Ram attend ?'
My Answer : The College of faith,love,tolerance and all that is good in this universe,read it as 'Hinduism'...]
Monday, September 10, 2007
Glimpses of irony..
A few bizarre thoughts emanate from the recesses of my mind....
India lost to England and India won against South Korea, how many of us watched the losers and failed to notice the winners ? Irony,thats life..
A fly-over collapsed in the busy Panjagutta circle at Hyderabad yesterday,pretty sad...Human life is valued so less in our country,but I have ranted enough and it goes nowhere...Infrastructure woes in IT cities of India - Irony thats life....
Another girl baby's corpse found in Nithari.A culture that has female dieties,that prides in motherhood,talks of sanctity of women still struggles with female infanticide - Irony thats life..
I long to hear someone say nice things about me,a word of appreciation or even a casual compliment,funnily nothing ever comes my way until one bizarre moment when I least expect it.. and then when it comes,it does NOT matter to me..It does not make me happy, I no longer wait for it, at times, it sounds superficial too..
Irony thats life..
Somewhere, halfway across the world from where I stand,a few good souls are still in their slumber,or have they woken up so early ? Them,with whom I spent a little more than a week and yet,felt as if I had known them since times immemorial made a huge impact to my life though I had little in common, in contrast to a few of my own people,with whom I had a lot in common and yet,nothing to relate to..
Irony-thats life...
A new day begins,filled with promises and excitement, but, I think about the days gone by,wishing I went back to this day last month,a crazy day that was,when I just jumped into the next train to Edinburgh,not knowing the why-what-how of my purpose of getting there..
The human mind always craves for things it does not have,shades of irony here ?
India lost to England and India won against South Korea, how many of us watched the losers and failed to notice the winners ? Irony,thats life..
A fly-over collapsed in the busy Panjagutta circle at Hyderabad yesterday,pretty sad...Human life is valued so less in our country,but I have ranted enough and it goes nowhere...Infrastructure woes in IT cities of India - Irony thats life....
Another girl baby's corpse found in Nithari.A culture that has female dieties,that prides in motherhood,talks of sanctity of women still struggles with female infanticide - Irony thats life..
I long to hear someone say nice things about me,a word of appreciation or even a casual compliment,funnily nothing ever comes my way until one bizarre moment when I least expect it.. and then when it comes,it does NOT matter to me..It does not make me happy, I no longer wait for it, at times, it sounds superficial too..
Irony thats life..
Somewhere, halfway across the world from where I stand,a few good souls are still in their slumber,or have they woken up so early ? Them,with whom I spent a little more than a week and yet,felt as if I had known them since times immemorial made a huge impact to my life though I had little in common, in contrast to a few of my own people,with whom I had a lot in common and yet,nothing to relate to..
Irony-thats life...
A new day begins,filled with promises and excitement, but, I think about the days gone by,wishing I went back to this day last month,a crazy day that was,when I just jumped into the next train to Edinburgh,not knowing the why-what-how of my purpose of getting there..
The human mind always craves for things it does not have,shades of irony here ?
Thursday, September 06, 2007
Now that is called 'good cricket'...
Am talking of yesterday's cricket match, Ind vs Eng, it has been a while India put up a fight in this manner, is Indian cricket getting back to shape ? i dont wanna say things a little too early..
Robin Uthappa, my man! thats what captain Rahul told on camera yesterday. A sort of surprise, he was for everyone.The bets were on Yuvraj,Dravid and others, so Robin had to just stay focussed and not let pressure engulf his batting. That's exactly what he did, I suppose.
The last but one, a flick towards fine leg was a beauty, a bold shot,that was played with just one thing in mind - instinct,my opinion though,the experts might have a theory! And when victory seemed just over the horizon,his answer to a full toss delivery giving India the one-run lead was what I term as 'excellent cricket'!!
Fortune favors the brave,perhaps ??
I only hope they don't ruin Robin's career now by sending him at 6-down all the time. Not another Pathan, please! Robin is an opener,so let him be. Especially now,his morale should be high enough for him to open well. India needs a strikesman, an intelligent version of Veerendra Sehwag, Robin is my bet for that!
Not to forget Sachin and Saurav. They played like they were in their teens! Indians are learning to fight, to chase ,which has been our weak area for decades now. The 7 batsmen decision was finally correct!
To talk of the English team, well,Staurt Broad is a guy to watch out for. The lad has an attitude and he bowls well. Very confident. Saurav should not have gotten out at his hands,not after the spat!! But then India won, so it is all ok...
One thing is certain,The Indians,are slowly coming out of the disaster called 'Chappell era',one more thing is certain, the English are trying to ape the Australians,are we seeing another Ashes here ?
Whatever,another can of Irn Bru down! just one more to go...saving that for Saturday, the big game at Lords! Hope India wins, hope Sachin scores that evading-century,for this could possibly be his last series on British soil..
Robin Uthappa, my man! thats what captain Rahul told on camera yesterday. A sort of surprise, he was for everyone.The bets were on Yuvraj,Dravid and others, so Robin had to just stay focussed and not let pressure engulf his batting. That's exactly what he did, I suppose.
The last but one, a flick towards fine leg was a beauty, a bold shot,that was played with just one thing in mind - instinct,my opinion though,the experts might have a theory! And when victory seemed just over the horizon,his answer to a full toss delivery giving India the one-run lead was what I term as 'excellent cricket'!!
Fortune favors the brave,perhaps ??
I only hope they don't ruin Robin's career now by sending him at 6-down all the time. Not another Pathan, please! Robin is an opener,so let him be. Especially now,his morale should be high enough for him to open well. India needs a strikesman, an intelligent version of Veerendra Sehwag, Robin is my bet for that!
Not to forget Sachin and Saurav. They played like they were in their teens! Indians are learning to fight, to chase ,which has been our weak area for decades now. The 7 batsmen decision was finally correct!
To talk of the English team, well,Staurt Broad is a guy to watch out for. The lad has an attitude and he bowls well. Very confident. Saurav should not have gotten out at his hands,not after the spat!! But then India won, so it is all ok...
One thing is certain,The Indians,are slowly coming out of the disaster called 'Chappell era',one more thing is certain, the English are trying to ape the Australians,are we seeing another Ashes here ?
Whatever,another can of Irn Bru down! just one more to go...saving that for Saturday, the big game at Lords! Hope India wins, hope Sachin scores that evading-century,for this could possibly be his last series on British soil..
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