The Sanaatana Dharma..

There are times I feel lost,lonely and confused. This state-of-mind which, I allude to,collectively can be termed as "searching for an absolution". And mostly these are times when the going has been good, when the events in my life are in order, when there is no explicit occurance of anything that has upset my emotions or ruined my happiness or killed my enthusiasm or induced any form of dejectory feelings towards anyone or anything, in short when life is perfect, or nearly so! ( for nothing is perfect, let me not claim to possess this absolute)

I venture to repeat a self-conversation with myself here..

Me:Why do I feel this way when everything is going my way ?
My self:No idea.

Me: What are my unfulfilled desires ?
My self: Lots actually but I know it is only a matter of time.

Me: Am I afraid of loneliness ?
My self: Not really, it is a matter of time again.

Me: Am I saddened by that one person who forgot me, that one love I did not get or that one fight I had ?
My self: Maybe,but that is not cause of this feeling.

and so on. Well,conclusion ? None of these mundane problems are troubling me. I have enough grit and character in me to solve, get over or make amends to cure myself of these trivial heart-aches.This is something more.This is an emptiness that exists when when the cup of life seems full and overflowing! This is a question that am sure, has sprung from the inner souls of many a man/woman who walks this earth and has done so in the past. It is not a new one, yet, it is as I stand today, a long forgotten question,something that I have not answered to for a while now. Above all,it is difficult to postulate uncertain and complex thoughts!

As always, I go to GOOGLE, the all-answering machinery that exists in today's world.
Not knowing what to google, I cast my mind back to the current affairs of my country and randomly type the word 'Hinduism'. A plethora of answers,links and information in response makes me happy, for I have got something to 'timepass' :)-

Not even once does my dumb self realize that this was the answer to my questions. As I progressively read one link from another and delve into the mysticism of the 'Sanatana Dharma' and its universal principles, I feel a sense of relief, as if someone has lifted a boulder off me. My mind tries to understand the grand scheme of things,of 'The Brahman','The Creation','The Vedas','The Upanishads' and finally, the resting place for all unanswered questions of humankind,'The Bhagavad Gita'. A sense of restoration of spirit prevails, the confusion that I'm unable to even fathom is beginning to fade away and appear trivial and useless in comparison to the 'wisdom' of those sages who realized these very principles. I'm in awe of how much we have and how much there is to imbibe. I'm in awe of our ancient civilisation, of the society that was centuries ahead of the rest of the world, thousands of years before the calendar was recorded.

Most importantly, am in awe of the set of principles called 'Hinduism' that has remained intact after umpteen invasions, misinterpretation, competition and what not.
My mind is engrossed like never before. I feel proud of what I just did, it is a worthwhile act,to even try to understand the teachings of our Vedic saints..The people who invented 'Sanskrit' could never be fools!

This was a beautiful quote that impressed me from the zillion lines of 'wisdom pearls' in answer to this google search :-

“If all the Upanishads and all the other scriptures happened all of a sudden to be reduced to ashes, and if only the first verse in the Ishopanishad were left in the memory of the Hindus, Hinduism would live forever.”
"The Lord is enshrined in the hearts of all
The Lord is the supreme Reality
Rejoice in him through renunication.
Covet nothing. All belongs to the Lord." - Isha Upanishad 1 -1 .


I'm proud to live the 'Hindu way of life'
I'm proud to be a Hindu!

[P.S:
Question of the hour: 'Which engineering college did Ram attend ?'
My Answer : The College of faith,love,tolerance and all that is good in this universe,read it as 'Hinduism'...]

Glimpses of irony..

A few bizarre thoughts emanate from the recesses of my mind....

India lost to England and India won against South Korea, how many of us watched the losers and failed to notice the winners ? Irony,thats life..

A fly-over collapsed in the busy Panjagutta circle at Hyderabad yesterday,pretty sad...Human life is valued so less in our country,but I have ranted enough and it goes nowhere...Infrastructure woes in IT cities of India - Irony thats life....

Another girl baby's corpse found in Nithari.A culture that has female dieties,that prides in motherhood,talks of sanctity of women still struggles with female infanticide - Irony thats life..

I long to hear someone say nice things about me,a word of appreciation or even a casual compliment,funnily nothing ever comes my way until one bizarre moment when I least expect it.. and then when it comes,it does NOT matter to me..It does not make me happy, I no longer wait for it, at times, it sounds superficial too..
Irony thats life..

Somewhere, halfway across the world from where I stand,a few good souls are still in their slumber,or have they woken up so early ? Them,with whom I spent a little more than a week and yet,felt as if I had known them since times immemorial made a huge impact to my life though I had little in common, in contrast to a few of my own people,with whom I had a lot in common and yet,nothing to relate to..
Irony-thats life...

A new day begins,filled with promises and excitement, but, I think about the days gone by,wishing I went back to this day last month,a crazy day that was,when I just jumped into the next train to Edinburgh,not knowing the why-what-how of my purpose of getting there..

The human mind always craves for things it does not have,shades of irony here ?

Now that is called 'good cricket'...

Am talking of yesterday's cricket match, Ind vs Eng, it has been a while India put up a fight in this manner, is Indian cricket getting back to shape ? i dont wanna say things a little too early..

Robin Uthappa, my man! thats what captain Rahul told on camera yesterday. A sort of surprise, he was for everyone.The bets were on Yuvraj,Dravid and others, so Robin had to just stay focussed and not let pressure engulf his batting. That's exactly what he did, I suppose.

The last but one, a flick towards fine leg was a beauty, a bold shot,that was played with just one thing in mind - instinct,my opinion though,the experts might have a theory! And when victory seemed just over the horizon,his answer to a full toss delivery giving India the one-run lead was what I term as 'excellent cricket'!!
Fortune favors the brave,perhaps ??

I only hope they don't ruin Robin's career now by sending him at 6-down all the time. Not another Pathan, please! Robin is an opener,so let him be. Especially now,his morale should be high enough for him to open well. India needs a strikesman, an intelligent version of Veerendra Sehwag, Robin is my bet for that!

Not to forget Sachin and Saurav. They played like they were in their teens! Indians are learning to fight, to chase ,which has been our weak area for decades now. The 7 batsmen decision was finally correct!

To talk of the English team, well,Staurt Broad is a guy to watch out for. The lad has an attitude and he bowls well. Very confident. Saurav should not have gotten out at his hands,not after the spat!! But then India won, so it is all ok...

One thing is certain,The Indians,are slowly coming out of the disaster called 'Chappell era',one more thing is certain, the English are trying to ape the Australians,are we seeing another Ashes here ?

Whatever,another can of Irn Bru down! just one more to go...saving that for Saturday, the big game at Lords! Hope India wins, hope Sachin scores that evading-century,for this could possibly be his last series on British soil..