My dearest friends

Life is full of surprises. :)- Especially when it comes to people. Oflate, I have begun to enjoy human psychology. Observing people is interesting and one helluva timepass. It is an added enjoyment if it is someone I know because it is so strange to see the various masks worn by your own kith and kin and at the same time, a complete eye-opener!! Lessons learnt from people are the best ones.

From people I know so far, I have found the following diversities :-

1. Some I thought 'I could share my deepest thoughts', I discovered, shut themselves off at the mere decibel of my voice.
2. Some I thought 'mature' hadn't seen the world! (funny this one)
3. Some who were in my thoughts many a time, I figured out 'couldn't care less about me'!
4. Some supposedly "cool" personalities thought I was "old" and not worth a second glance!
5. Some even refused to look me in the eye ( I still cant understand this attitude)
6. Some who promised 'great friendships' have never stopped to ask 'how are you feeling today ?'
7. Some don't like me talking to them, for some I'm too loud,some don't like me at all! (under that smiling facade)
8. Some get irritated if I make casual conversation.
9. Some are jealous of my "single-dom" yet wonder why am single at 31 (this is the weirdest)
10. For some, am too cliched, too orthodox and too boring and not-cool at all.
11. Some fear being with me when no one else around. (This pisses me off big time but I don't bloody show it cos I'm reading their minds you see !)

Conversely,I have found some great friendships in people I hardly know at all. It is probably to do with "Me" as a person. So long as I stay "Unknown", it is nice, I guess.

Life shall move on no matter what! Many of these "FRIENDS" shall disappear from the plane of my life, not because I cast them away but because "they never wanted to be there" in the first place. It was only my imagination that I thought I existed for them! As time progresses, I discover the shallowness of these people who never bothered. I figured the casualness of those conversations.

It is time I move from the "timepass" friends to the "real-time" friends.

People who "let me cry" instead of "don't cry,life is going fine for you"
People who say "You are looking good/beautiful today" instead of the ones who hesitate to give a genuine compliment for i-duno-what fear!!
People who say "she is only 31" instead of the ones who say "she is 31 already"
People who say "Rex, you can" instead of "Now it is gonna be tough for you"

I have learnt that the ones who have been there always, everytime, are the ones who never promised anything. They are the ones who have lent me their shoulders (litrally), shouted at me, fought with me,bought things for me,searched a "suitable boy" for me,called me 'crazy', asked me out, ordered me about, drove roundabout to meet me,etc. These are the crazy friends I have who shall be a part of my life forever, not because I cast them in, but because "they cast me into their lives". They love me more than I shall ever know! Because with every passing day, they throw surprises in my life.For them,my presence in their life is not incidental but a divine coincidence.(I love it when they say 'am lucky to have you', feels so nice)

Sandy,Kart,Venus,Pakaru,Chits,Vins,DBT,Moule,m'lady,"Bank of M....",Praps,C-auntie,Arati,AV,VR,KK and AG - thanks for choosing to have me into your life.

an ideal day

4 AM - rise from sleep, brush, have honey and warm water
4.30 AM - go out to the terrace and sit under the stars,sunrise,whatever and hear some silence!
5 AM - practise music
7 AM - cup of coffee with Indian express :)
7.30 AM - help Mummy in kitchen
8.30 AM - Get dressed to work
9.15 AM - drive to work
10 AM - start work ( in the strictest sense!)
11.30 AM - coffee break
11.45 AM - back to desk ( if this can happen after item above, I would say 'I have arrived!')
1 PM - lunch and walk
2 PM - back to work ( as in work and not bloggin,orkut,and GTP )
5 PM - tea with gang
5.30 PM - leave for home
6 PM - chat with mom and dad
6.30 PM - practise music
7.45 PM - dinner and GTP
8.45 PM - off to a swim
10 PM - back from swim, washup, drink hot milk and read
11 PM - off to sleep.
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- I strive to live for this day!! Why am I reminded of that song 'Nothing else matters!'. Why am I reminded of the following lines I read somewhere ?

How happy is the blameless vestal's lot!
The world forgetting, by the world forgot.
Eternal sunshine of the spotless mind!
Each pray'r accepted, and each wish resign'd;
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